Happy Nurses Day!

Today marks the day people from all over the world celebrate Nurses Day.

I’m glad there is such a day dedicated for us nurses. But to me, we should not be praised only 1 day of the year.

Day in and out my friends and I would be so glad to make you feel more comfortable.

It has been like this since the day i decided to become a nurse. No doubt, we all have bad days, and many a times, i’d wish i could just drop it all and leave the profession altogether.

Ever since i stepped into my current organization, I’ve had role models. These wonderful nurses to me are very much dear angels sent from God. That is my belief and till this day, I am so honored to have worked alongside them. Starting with the Nursing officer who dared to challenge us. Asking us questions that made us think, that made us look, that made us curious. Every time she drops by my ward for clinical attachment, she’d drop a bomb on us. “Student come, let me ask you some questions.” Usually, i’d shudder at that, but when it came to her, she never raised her voice, never got angry never put us down. Instead, she asked, we could not answer, she said it was okay, find out today and let me know tomorrow. I never felt happier to find out what ever she asked because she dared to challenge me. It felt good to know the answer too. In the end, i learnt something new. This style of teaching and learning is not any tom, dick or harry can adopt. This is the challenge style of learning, not hostile yet accepting. She was my first role model.

My second role model is someone who is a dear friend to me. She also inspires me by remembering all the names of the student nurses to the staff working in the hospital. Try to imagine, if a hospital has about 1000 working nurses, she probably know all the names. there is not one single nurse i know that she forgot the name. she is also a great motivator. Encouraging me when i,m down and out. Without her, i really wont know where id be today.

Sadly she thought id leave nursing early. but till this day, im still hanging on.

Oh my, i have side tracked a lot. allow me to head back to the start.

This day, i would like to thank all the wonderful nurses who shared their knowledge with me, teaching and guiding me with patient hearts and kind understanding. There are some who are fierce and some who are soft hearted. But i wanna thank you all. because if not for you, i wont be where i am today.

So be blessed dear nurses from all over the world! On behalf of all those who share the same sentiments, may God bless you so much that it becomes overwhelming. God will shine in you and use you to help others in need.

Be proud and stand tall because in my line, you will never stand alone. You are my family and i will do my best to aid you, help you, push you and fight the storms together.

This is what a dear nurse said to me what she taught of me.

“You are a good person to talk to, you are concerned about patients, and you have very good interpersonal skills, you are a caring nurse and a good colleague.”

God bless her for her kind words. She is not a local but yet i respect her for her kindness, open mindedness and wit. She helps without asking and never uses No as an answer. Indeed a rare gem, a wonderful friend.

Widya is another great friend, of whom i regard as a dear sister. She is no doubt a great person to chat with and also one who knows her stuff. Always lending a listening ear, she never fails to impress me with her wit, knowledge and what’s more she is now in the place where i aim to go in about 2-3 years time. I look forward to learning more from her, thanks so much dear Wids for being there for me despite your hectic schedule and family life. God bless you dearly!

Confusion and distractions.

As human as i can be, i can honestly and being frank (no that’s not my name), I dare admit that i am very easily distracted. It goes back to what I should do and what I’d wanna do. Here’s how it goes.

 

I should be studying since i started school. Topics mainly Research and Law and Ethics.

BUT

I want to learn to DJ, i want to learn the violin, the Er hu, i wanna improve my keyboard playing, i wanna pick up my guitar, i wanna sing…

So i stick my face into youtube, watching videos of how wonderful people are, and how shitty i am here stuck. Doing nothing but watching others reach their dreams while i stone and watch their videos in awe.

Thing is i know, it’s only 2 years. and bham! i’d have a degree in Nursing! It’s something i look very much forward to. But the question is should i stop there? or should i try and obtain my Advance diploma in Critical care as well? See there are 2 ways to obtaining this. One, being via my organization and of course the other is on my own. There is much to decide on and think about.

My dream of going to Australia still hangs on a thread. I admit, I’d definitely want to see what the other side of the world is like. After all, comparing USA, Canada, London and Australia, the nearest to Singapore is Australia. My folks are aging and someone needs to take care of them.

Pushing away all my other wants as mentioned above, i decided to stick to the same ol Ez that i am, not throwing my cash at anything that pops in front of my face but to save it all for a better tomorrow.

All these wants can be obtained later in life.

The saying goes: Would you suffer 20years of your life and enjoy the rest of them, or enjoy the 20 years of your life and suffer the rest?

You decide.

 

PS: i started on Zuzuna’s 4 minute workout, damn it was tiring! can u believe it? 4 minutes only and i’m almost dying. For those who don’t know what i’m blabbering about, check out bodyrock.tv on the web or in youtube.

God bless.

The last day (of the first week)

Ah, not really much of the blink of an eye but you get what I mean when I mention this won’t you? It has been a week already since school started and already there are 2 assignments due in October and November. I’ll assume that this is very much common when it comes to higher education? Correct me if I’m wrong.

I am however curious, are people rushing to get a degree? Other than the fact that you hold a qualification paper, what impact would it hold on an individual?

Indeed, one would carry the experience and knowledge gained from the studies. It is then a choice of that individual, to apply it and make full use of it, or what we always call it ‘return to the lecturer’ what has been learnt. I ponder over such thoughts.

In my line of work, there are a lot of fellow staff who have already obtained a degree from the numerous schools that provide it locally, but I’m curious once again of those that have obtained it, how many really put that into practice? How many people would consider doing a research to challenge current practices or help improve the current practices because at the end of the day, we want what’s best for our clients, and of cause, the best practice available don’t we? Just place yourselves into your client’s shoes and you would say the same thing.

No doubt, my current modules cover only research and law and ethics, how then can I apply what I picked up from these modules to aid my standard of practice or pool of knowledge to bring a better tomorrow for those I care for?

Deep thoughts I have, contribute to the grey/ white hair that grows on the crown of my head. Indeed, there are worries that pop into my head and I know I should not worry because nothing is impossible when it comes to God right?

Hard to apply dear readers. Really. I worry about the safety of my family members and their possible cause of action that might affect their future. I worry about my siblings, all 4 of them. Really hoping that we can gel well even when our folks pass on.

You might not have the same worries like I do, but I’m sure you care about your loved ones, and they are constantly on your minds.

Being human is not easy after all.

Not that I can choose to be something else can I?

If I was to say that I’m an angel, I’m sure you’d laugh and my statement and call me silly.

But then again, what I think of myself is just me right? Gladly accept me for who I am dear readers, and do not be quick to judge.

Ponder ponder…

Going back to square 1.

Mum left to Penang to accompany dad.

So more time alone to do my own things. Meaning more time to do my exercises and eat my own meals. It’s harder when you eat with family. Since Chinese Asians are very much rice people.

So I started the day with a bowl of noodles before mum left.

Cooked one of the two steaks I bought from Cold storage. No offense but I wonder if the halal and non halal one would taste any different. Hmm

Had egg whites along side my steak. No vegetables (smacks his head) hmm need to know how to prepare them well or else I’ll lose Interest in them quickly and buy from outside.

Got class later. Law and ethics. Fran’s gonna take us. Between Fran and Lorraine, I kinda deduced that Fran’s a little more strict than Lorraine but she makes you think. Which is good. Makes you ponder before you speak.

I can’t wait to finish this semester. Ain’t I ambitious? Hmm

I joined 3 other girls as mentioned in my other updates, I fear that they might be quite laid-back. Till date, I have yet to receive any email from them regarding the assignment. I can’t be judgmental here saying who is lazy or not. My fear is the lazafaire attitude.

Nways I hope I’m wrong.

My second climb, Bukit Timah Hill

My second climb up Bukit Timah Hill was definitely much better than the first. This time I knew that there was an initial steep slope and subsequent paths ahead was more flat and gradual. It felt more like a piece of cake. But of cause, I only set foot upon the normal route. I didn’t walk off the beaten track. It did feel different though the last time I attempted with J.

Dear friend Heileen was my company this week. What she said was true, she was like donkey and I was shrek lol. Having something to talk about would keep her entertained and alive, if not she would plug her ears and listen to her music. I did tell her that it ruined the nature but she needed it to move on. Okay I guess, we all have our own ways of handling things.

This time, we walked the other side, toward the quarry. It was nice and quiet, just the way I like it, no noise but the sound of trees, birds and insects. Better yet, no mosquitos! To me, that’s essential.

I’ll post a picture for your eyes to feast upon.

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Day 3 in school, the tutorial

A full day, I thought to myself. It has been a long time since I last sat in a classroom for discussions. Today would be the first after so many hours. Would I stay awake? Would I feel tired? I pondered as I dragged my heavy lower limbs toward the bus stop. Reading through the notes and looking if I still don’t understand anything about the past two days. There has been a lot of info being thrown to me and honestly all I need to do, is to just link them together and apply it to my work. Yes, I know it sounds easier to use mere words rather than actions. But I won’t give up. It is something I must put double effort to make the grade. It’s time to score well for once in my life. I’ll just need to put away all my distractions. Now how hard can that be? Locking away my computer, together with my xbox360 hmm or cutting off the Internet service forcing myself to hit the books, I’d usually just head to the library because over there, I have not much of a choice. The only fear there is to snooze lol. Yes fat people get tired easy and I’ll say it here and now, I’m not slim. Hmm I even stopped my ‘diet’ plan. Hmm what should I do next? I do need motivation and advice. I need my own fridge because the current one is like hell freezing over. Anything in there will freeze. I’m giving away my oven which means I can’t bake. Hmm but it’s okay, I’m guessing she needs it more than I do. Gosh so much to say and I have not even started on my second paragraph. I shall now.

Today Lorraine recapped the last two days of lessons. I understand it better now. But I’ll need to put them pieces together in my own understanding before having it applied to anything else. We broke into groups and sat to discuss bout intuition, scientific research, tradition and autonomy and IND. I met 4 different people from different settings. One from eye clinic, one from urology, one from rehab and the last is a case mix manager. Hmm all have different point of views. Interesting indeed.

After lunch, we had to sit in groups to discuss our 2part of our paper. It was very sudden I had to decide if I should join my friend or a new group. And because she didn’t reply me, I joined a new group. Later on my friend replied me upset that I joined another group when I should have joined hers. Haiz, hard to please humans.

Oh well what’s done is done. We had to write a proposal on a problem and what type of research we were to do. Of all, we boiled down to a relationship between hand hygiene and hospital acquired infections. It’s a common topic but there are a lot of journals out there. Lorraine and Fran were okay with it.

Since I had nothing to do, I decided to sit down at Hanis and look for more journals. Managed to find a few but I fear they might not be the ones we’d want. Would have to look through them later tonight.

Did a little shopping at daiso and walked around a bit to chill. Looking at the things I can buy with my bonus lol but I know i can’t. Because all the money will go into my studies. Yes I’m self sponsored. I’m independent lol. I don’t rely on others or depend on others to fund me.

Oh well, I don’t know now if I should go to aust. Mixed feelings… Maybe go there for two years then return back here. I don’t know. What do you think Widya?

Day 2 in school

Had to take mc because I could not absorb all the information. I had a bad headache and could not sleep damn I hate those days.

Rested at home and did the videos which were somewhat due tomorrow. Had to pass it to Dawn. Stressed, she was very apologetic thou, God bless her.

Time flew quickly. Especially when you are enjoying, to be honest, i didn’t give myself any time to revise yesterday’s work. So I’m still lost over the 1st lecture.

Dinner was at ps foodcourt with sherry and her friend. Ayam pangang yum!

Walked over and just nice 6pm. Gosh time really flies.

Today we learnt about research studies . Quantitative vs qualitative. Numbers and statistics vs how people feel when they experience this n that.

I’m glad I understood today’s lecture. So much so that I feel Lorraine maybe just reading off the slides. I guess no one is perfect right? She would definitely be a great researcher but perhaps her lecturing skills may have taken a step back. The best one can do more or less in this field, is to share her experiences. Which she did and that helped me understand better.

Good haha

Oh btw, I’m back to my normal diet boo hoo. And good news! My interval timer came!! Yeah!!!